Oh Detroit…

One of my bucket list destinations was to visit Detroit and Michigan in general. Michigan is one of those states that you have to physically go to or you never will. The main reason is if you cut across the United States across the top part of the country you won’t ever drive through it because of it’s location. I have various reasons for wanting to visit Detroit which includes: visiting Motown, seeing a Tigers game, seeing the Fox Theater and Fillmore.

May 2023 this bucket list got a check. Visiting my cousin in Ohio I decided to travel north and go see the city I’ve heard so much about. I wanted to see these historic locations, I wanted to see that Tigers game which I did. I had an absolute blast visiting Detroit, and I will never forget it. I have some good and bad memories to take with me and it’s the bad ones that concerns me.

Detroit and Michigan happen to be a state run by liberals and has since before I was born. I can’t honestly recollect a time when conservatives had control in my lifetime; that being said it’s 44 years now. This state and city happen to have some of the highest taxes in our country. The citizens are literally taxed to death. So my question is why on earth are the roads so abysmal and trash on the side of the roads. Why are there so many homeless people, people living in poverty, and businesses running from the state? Aren’t taxes supposed to go to fix these things?

What I see is the fleecing of the good people of Michigan and Detroit by spineless, elitist left wing olagarts that take advantage of these citizens. They trick these individuals with civil rights and other propaganda rhetoric to get them to keep voting left when in the end, they don’t care about them only their money. The corruption inside the Detroit local government is astounding. The Governor of Michigan won again in 2022 despite the people despising her and her communist like regime she played especially during COVID.

With taxes like they take, the streets should be clean enough to eat off of. The industry should be thriving, businesses thriving and homeless made into middle class. This is the failure of the left wing policies. I’ve traveled to 40 states, the states run by liberals or the cities they control are the worst cities around. WHY?

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My New Tattoo

A week and a half ago I went to get a tattoo a few years in the works. On mother’s day 2022 I got my first tattoo, a butterfly on my leg. It was kind of a precursor to this tattoo. I wanted to experience the sensation, while getting to understand the process. Regardless about where the tattoo is on my body, it MUST have some kind of symbolic meaning for me. The butterfly symbolized my new birth as my true self.

This tattoo has a much deeper meaning and symbolism, which is why it took me over a year to create the concept of it. The tattoo has four pieces to it, and they all have a deep meaning for me. So let me explain

MOON: The moon is something that plays a BIG part in my life and has since birth. When I am stressed, I go walk under the moonlight. I was born a minute before noon on Nov 1, the moon is the yang to my yin. The moon has a way to cleanse my soul, rejuvenate my energy and heal my heart. Many times growing up I would look outside or look up if I was outside at the moon and wish that someday I could truly be myself. The moon is the night, and I am night. Throughout the night I get my best ideas and inspiration. My life would not be what it is today if it wasn’t for the moon; that being a international exhibiting artist, a audio/video producer. The moon lights your path in the strictest darkness.

FAIRY: Fairies are interesting creatures. We can’t confirm they exist yet we can’t confirm they don’t. Fairies are these magical creatures that make the world beautiful with every touch. You may never see one but you are impacted by their actions. Legend has it they only come out at night for the most part, and if you happen to see one or capture one, you are blessed with good luck. That’s me in a nutshell, many never saw me, I was invisible in plain sight yet the work I did, the art I created was seen by countless people and I’ve heard it helped them. Often growing up and even as an adult I would sit with my head on my knees and cry, wish for something better, or admire the moon from a totally submissive pose. The hair is brown because that fairy IS me!

LEAVES: The leaves growing up the side of the moon represent new life and growth (spiritually, physically and mentally). This is my life now. In 2020 my branch had some green leaves but also an abundance of dead leaves and healthy leaves with some death on them. Once I forgave myself, loved myself and grew, my leaves grew healthy and started growing up. This is a symbol for life and prosperity.

SIGN: The sign at the bottom is the Arabic version of my name, written by a friend of mine from Egypt. The Egyptian culture has always fascinated me. I loved the mummy at Yale’s Peabody Museum. I love the ancient architecture and how they made that civilization flourish for millenia. This was her gift for me, and I wanted to incorporate it. Now Arabic is in multiple countries but it came from my Egyptian friend. It is held by the chain to tie the piece together calling it EMMA. I also wanted to have my name, but not in a recognizable language.

That’s my tattoo meaning. I think that if you are going to tattoo something it should be symbolic or meaningful to you; remember it’s permanent and will represent you. I do have one suggestion when you tattoo something on your body that uses foreign languages, make SURE the symbol means what you hope for, NEVER take anyone’s word. For instance a lot of times we tattoo words in Chinese on us, but since it’s a symbol, make sure you know that the symbol is what you want, don’t take someone’s word for it that doesn’t know the language. If you know someone that speaks the language, have them write it for you.

Tattoos are fun, I am addicted to them but I won’t go crazy with them as some do.

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Love Ourselves and Mind Our Own Business

It’s been two years since I publicly announced my secret of being intersex. Throughout this time of growing, learning and accepting myself I learned a lot of important things from others that have walked the path before me. I looked back at the world, the virtue seekers, the agendas and narratives coming from the various letters of the LGBTQ community and I tend to wonder why are we putting ourselves through unnecessary drama.

Ok, lets go back 30 to 40 years, putting us into the 1980s and 1990s when I was growing up. Being gay was highly taboo. Gay individuals were met with severe bullying, hatred and discrimination. You were lucky if you didn’t get killed depending where you lived. Times were much different back then for people in the LGB community. Now it’s different, the pioneers that rose up for equality and anti-discrimination did their job and won. Most people don’t care what we do as humans as long as it doesn’t impede on their lives.

Despite the playing field being very level now, the LGBTQ individuals love to flaunt their sexual preference in everyone’s faces. Have you ever gone to a pride parade? I have and I was embarrassed to say the least. People walked the streets waving flags, some half naked, men walking around with genital attire, assless chaps, whips and chains and lots of other sexual things. Women half naked, showing their bare breasts. Drag queens and gay individuals would have very explicit dancing and displays on the floats. This is not something I would consider R rated it’s almost X rated and yet it’s in public in front of children.

When straight people see this, they take offense. If you walked in the parade and you were classy they would support you. For the most part you won’t see straight individuals dancing clad, half naked or anything like this in public. If they did they would be arrested and/or put on a sexual predator list if it’s lewd enough. The LGTBQ can’t understand why the support for the organization has gone down the tubes. They can’t understand why the straight people are starting to meet them with discourse again. I can tell you why.

It’s because you are shoving the flags in their face, you parade around without care if you’re naked, lewd or provocative. You push your ideologies down their throats and if they disagree you accuse them of hating and bigotry, homo and transphobia. Ugly words. WE have become the bully, we throw tantrums when we don’t get our way. We are grooming their children and going behind their backs with their children’s sexuality. We refuse to compromise and show straight people the compassion we once asked for and demanded from them. Some families are torn apart because their child is gay or trans and they don’t want to rush to transition them thus losing them to the state.

Here’s the thing, most people don’t give a damn what you do in your bedroom. It’s NOBODY’S BUSINESS! If you’re gay, fine…act like a decent human. How many CIS straight couples do you see flying flags in your face, demanding you accept their ideologies or face strict backlash and canceling. Do they go up in your face and have lewd provocative scenes in public with their spouse or BF/GF? Not always but it does happen, but it happens a lot more in the LGBTQ community.

As an intersex woman, when I leave my house I am EMMA Dowd. I am a normal woman as that is what I portray, I don’t go around announcing I have a genital and chromosomal deformity. I have never been called out to my face or to my knowledge behind my back, except by haters that don’t like my message. I am married to a woman, I don’t go around and shove my tongue or her tongue down our throats, practically stripping in public. I don’t wear flags that call attention to my sexuality or intersex condition. People don’t blink an eye when I am with her or alone. When I see people I treat them with the same love and respect I want for myself. I don’t judge anyone and in turn they have no right to judge me. Should someone find out or I am forced to tell my condition I don’t talk down to them or AT them, I simply explain the condition as a rational human being, with concern of their feelings. If they reject me and leave that’s fine too. I don’t need to be accepted by anyone, just respected enough to walk away and not cause trouble for me. I walk and talk with love, no malice even if they disagree.

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I Can’t Make This Stuff Up

I was recently on Arielle Scarcella’s TV show on YouTube and what an amazing experience it was. I got the chance to tell my story, my experience and my warnings for people who are thinking about undergoing medically induced transitions from gender to gender. I know that my views and warnings go directly against the woke narrative and therefore it would bring some or an abundance of hate. I do not do these shows and tell my story to try to convince people I am intersex at all. I don’t need anyone’s acceptance nor do I need them to believe me or not. I simply know what the damages are the come from hormones and even seen from others the damages from surgical transitions after they changed their minds.

So of course I was attacked by a few people. Some will always believe I am transgender simply because of how the LGBTQ has grouped the trans and intersex community together. Yes we do have some similarities but intersex is a medical condition – a birth defect. So plenty of that happened inside the comment section, but one attacker went far beyond and above to discredit me.

They said they see so many contradictions in my interview with Arielle than what happened in my comments on my own YouTube channel. I was absolutely confused so I asked them for clarification. They said I denied I knew my diagnosis as an intersex, everyone that is intersex knows their diagnosis. They continued with I am now saying I am CAH but before on my channel I said there is no diagnosis so I am obviously lying that I am truly a transgender man who is using the blanket of intersex to gain acceptance.

This rocked me because I was thinking to myself, WHY would I have said that since I’ve known since 1996 my diagnosis; so I said PROVE IT.

Under the comments on Arielle’s video with me… they typed my conversation; and I said well damn I guess I did say that. I don’t know why I did – but they made a slight mistake. They called me a pedophile on that video, and I was able to look up that conversation. What I found made me irate at best. The conversation they wrote was not copy and pasted except one thing and they didn’t omit one vital piece of the answer I gave. The rest they grabbed some of the original question and omitted the rest – matched it with my answer and added [HUH] then my answer.

The question the individual asked was “what is the diagnosis of your CAH but they spelled out CAH. I said there is no diagnosis except I was fixed when I was a child to be male and that I was a twin and my brother died in utero and that is the cause.

They altered the question to say – what is your diagnosis? Then they made my reply [huh] there is no diagnosis except I was fixed when I was a child to be male and that I was a twin and my brother died in utero and that is the cause. So you are not CAH? I don’t know what that is.

None of that existed except my response about no diagnosis. The individual asked what caused my CAH, not what diagnosis was given for my intersex. My response was correct I don’t know what caused the CAH. It usually happens when there is an over abundance of testosterone if you are XX chromosome. The best answer possible right now that wasn’t an actual diagnosis but could be the factor to it was my dead twin.

So I decided to call them out and paste the actual conversation and they stopped responding.

The bottom line here is that nobody has to tell their diagnosis to anyone for any reason. I do tell it and yes sometimes I don’t get into the CAH as it’s confusing. I have it written in my medical file and my chromosome test and that is all I need, nobody else’s opinion on what I am matters. Yes my experience is a bit more complicated, but nothing is “cookie cutter” when it comes to illnesses and birth defects. To claim my experience isn’t normal so I’m lying and that I didn’t announce my condition so I am also lying is like telling someone who says they have cancer and doesn’t get specific they are lying.

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Emma’s Statement on Pride 2022

For many of American’s and individuals across the world, Pride is a special time to celebrate their own individuality and sexual preferences, to remind them that persecution and drive for equality was a journey not easily achieved. That statement is something I hold dear. So many people are persecuted every day over their religious, sexual, and political ideologies even to the extent over the color of their skin.

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